bit of this, bit of that...

i don;t know what the fuck is up with the computer... actually, with IE, netscape is working fine, IE isn't... i'm typing this in IE (we all know how much i hate netscape so i'll probably lose it but never mind!)

ugh, i have another new carer starting tomorrow. this will be my fourth regular volunteer carer since september plus i have had two hourly paid carers regularly covering shifts since christmas and various other people even uni part time carers or even one evil agency carer working with me...

i hope that it will all go ok with Amy but i wonder... i've been hurt by my care some many times this past year that i can't just assume it will all be ok and that we are going to get on great.

my friend jen who was one of my carers last year is her girlfriend and people i know tht have met amy (i only met her briefly) tell me shes lovely, very sweet and will probably do anything for me!

i know shes never worked with disabled people before which does worry me a little bit but i'm sure that she knows what the job is like from Jen...

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on other news i came back from home today, had a cool time but i wish it was a little more adapted - standing up to shower hurt my legs and i got breathless keep going up/down the stairs.

but i walked loads! which is an improvement on when i'm here and i use my chair pretty much 24/7

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think i forgot to write about going to the pub for sunday lunch last week and having to walk in because the door wasn't wide enough for my chair...

no bother i can walk so i walk in Trudi on one side of me and Nitu on the other...

we have lunch and it was scrummy but i got pissed off because it was us and Rach and 3 of Trudi's friends but the barmaid said we couldn't all sit where we were coz there wasn't enough space for us all. now baring in mind it involved steps if we moved we tried to stay where we were but no we ended up sitting us at one table and Trud's friends at another.

i felt really guilty because she'd made the effort to come and take us out on her day off (hence the two carers) and then had to spend half her meal sitting with us and half with her friends all because of me not being able to move without loads of hassle.

so then we are walking out and again i have Trudi one side and Nitu the other holding me up. we are just about to cross the road to the car and this man shouts accross the road to me

"drunk already?!"

god sometimes i wish i had this little badge or something that said "I am disabled, i know i'm not in my wheelchair at this point in time but i really CAN'T WALK THAT WELL!!!"

but no i don't so instead i just smile and laugh with everyone else, but you know what? it was annoying and made me so mad.

and i bet if i'd been in my chair that barmaid women would've let us all sit together where we were!!

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amy is coming for a drink in a few so best be off... wish me luck!

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