drunken ramblings

i would like to report that at this point in time i am kinda pissed (well, the better part of 3 blue wkd's and a vod and coke will do that to a girl...) and that the first day with Amy went very well.

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did feel kinda awkward with her. especially to start with as she was a little early (guess she wanted to make a good first impression) and i'd meant to be ready when she got here but wasn't quite!! that kinda fucked me up in the head, but never mind...

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my back is killing me again wish i could do something other then a hot water bottle, but due to my suicide attempt in november and the fact i still sometimes feel down i don't trust myself with painkillers, let alone prescription ones where u get like 100 at a time and they are damn strong and also due to the fact that i won't take baclofen or other anti-spasmodics due to side effects such as their being addictive and having a sedative side effect, theres nowt i can do!!

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Trud's here tomorrow and i'm pleased about that, i think i'm gonna get on with amy just fine once we settle down and get to know one another better, but i love trudi to bits and we can have a laugh and i feel comfy with her, never embarrassed to ask for anything and don't have to make any effort

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